For the past few years, my life was as ordinary as anyone has, which [yeah] anyone will agree to it.
Same as you guys, I've been bullied, beaten up, get stressed, fall in love, overthink and get problems. [Because that's what all of us will experience] But;
I just want to share with you guys a "something". This thing then opens up my eyes to what is really happening about me.
Well, I became insecure about how I look - how I dress, how I talk, like most of the things I do-. I keep on depending on other people's opinions and being controlled by it. I was craving for the good comments about myself, yet I also questioned them afterward.
It was really hard for me to find the answer to what is really happening about me. I've been blind to the expectation of society. And then, last Wednesday, while I was talking to my friend about my life [madaldal kase to'], the topic went to...
It is not just the world whom I should blame for what's happening to me, nor the society, the social media, even the anime that I'm watching...BUT.. it is me.
I let MYSELF be controlled by other people's opinion and the world's want me to be. Instead of doing what I want and be who I AM.
I let myself be tied up to these things and not knowing the true capabilities that will help me to improve and show what I can do, what I can be.
It's not that bad to humbly disagree with people who commended you, but putting a wall to yourself of who you can be is different. They may say positive things that it is hard to believe, but HEY! somehow that'll help you, but do not let it be your PATH of WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
Instead of putting a line-of-defense from all of the people even yourself, why not appreciate it? It isn't that bad. Even the ones who say negative to you, don't worry about them, those words that come out from their mouth, ain't going to pay your bills. [remember that!]
Most of the time we fight ourselves not realizing we're forgetting who we are, just to satisfy the needs of others.
I know that this may sound weird but, try to hug yourself, learn to appreciate your flaws, and be confident with it. It's hard, though I don't really know how hard it is for you, I've been through with that.
Same as you guys, I've been bullied, beaten up, get stressed, fall in love, overthink and get problems. [Because that's what all of us will experience] But;
I just want to share with you guys a "something". This thing then opens up my eyes to what is really happening about me.
Well, I became insecure about how I look - how I dress, how I talk, like most of the things I do-. I keep on depending on other people's opinions and being controlled by it. I was craving for the good comments about myself, yet I also questioned them afterward.
It was really hard for me to find the answer to what is really happening about me. I've been blind to the expectation of society. And then, last Wednesday, while I was talking to my friend about my life [madaldal kase to'], the topic went to...
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And at that moment, I suddenly realized, that he was right.
It is not just the world whom I should blame for what's happening to me, nor the society, the social media, even the anime that I'm watching...BUT.. it is me.
I let MYSELF be controlled by other people's opinion and the world's want me to be. Instead of doing what I want and be who I AM.
I let myself be tied up to these things and not knowing the true capabilities that will help me to improve and show what I can do, what I can be.
It's not that bad to humbly disagree with people who commended you, but putting a wall to yourself of who you can be is different. They may say positive things that it is hard to believe, but HEY! somehow that'll help you, but do not let it be your PATH of WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
Instead of putting a line-of-defense from all of the people even yourself, why not appreciate it? It isn't that bad. Even the ones who say negative to you, don't worry about them, those words that come out from their mouth, ain't going to pay your bills. [remember that!]
Most of the time we fight ourselves not realizing we're forgetting who we are, just to satisfy the needs of others.
I know that this may sound weird but, try to hug yourself, learn to appreciate your flaws, and be confident with it. It's hard, though I don't really know how hard it is for you, I've been through with that.
It may take a while, but I believe that even if the REAL CHALLENGE is YOU... YOURSELF. You will find the answer and have a fruitful life in the future.
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