I’m writing another personal content. This is not just about me, relationships, but somehow about life decisions. Whether I choose to continue or to end it.

Though, I may not seem interesting to be heard of or to read this content. Maybe??? There’s something that you can learn from it.

So, I was about to quit my job, because I’m going to study again. I can’t balance a regular job and school activities at the same time [I know my limits]. I know if I can do it or not.

My decision was based on my experience when I almost didn’t graduate in a University, due to the fact that I need money to suffice other projects in school. However, I need to sacrifice one subject in order for me to continue. But then I did (graduate), I was given a second chance by my professor. 

This experience of mine scared me, my health was compromised and even my time with my family when I was a working student. I just...don't want that to happen again. 

My current job doesn’t really consume my time. However, since I’m too far from home, calculating the time and effort was a big impact. I was overthinking these past few months on what to prioritize. I send my resignation to my manager andddddddddd….[something happened]. The next day, the boss of my boss [lol I don’t know what words to use]  talked to me about my resignation and provided me options. Instead of resigning, I was told that they can request to adjust my schedule at work. It was a good thing though, it delayed my enrollment. So what happened next is… I just decided to study online but after a few months, I decided to really quit my job.

And then, I was about to quit in life [not end my life]. You know.. my current life now. Quit on everything that I’m doing and what I really want. I always fail even though I plan it carefully and make sure to remind myself every day for what I have to do in order to accomplish it.

I finished this thought of mine about work, pressure, and expectations! And I start to accept the fact that, not all the time everything will go as you plan.

I was about to continue another journey that might end my relationship with my family. But instead, I think about the possibilities of what could have happened to my siblings because of my selfishness, knowing they’re still young and dependent.

I can’t help myself with overthinking and I know it’s the root cause why I get this feeling – exhausted from everything. 

Tough times are coming even in the midst of your life, where you are already suffering from a grave problem and then here comes another one! A never-ending journey. Well, it might seem impossible to knock that down, but things will definitely work out.

IT MIGHT NOT BE TODAY, BUT SOON IT WILL BE.