I was there

I knew it was all a dream, but I have to finish everything

from the beginning.

I saw the people I've been thinking for so long,

and

All of them have their own different sides of me that they chose.

I don't know why but I also wish all of those things never happened.

I wish that "this is not real"...

I am about to marry someone.

That guy is kind, lovable, know's my quirks yet it feels like...

there's something not right.

 Before the day, I was supposed to exchange vows.

I decided to leave him.

I know by myself that I'm not ready 

and 

If I chose this path I'll regret it...

The time is running out.

As if I'm trying to escape a problem that is just behind me.

I'm trying to ignore it and I know that I'm not ready to face it.

I knew that I'm going to hurt a lot of people if I leave,

but I must choose to walk away.

I felt my guts and only a few people, would like to help me.

IT FELT SO REAL, that my heart beats fast.

I kept waking up, and when I sleep again, it continues the next phase of my dream...

I remember everything, and I knew all along,

that I have to hurt someone, 

before 

I get to realize what I must do in my life.