Every day, there was no ounce in my life

that does not feel exhausting.

I always wanted to know how to live

with a smile that does not go away.

This pent-up feeling affects my surroundings

And I...

I do not know what to do anymore

I'm trying to build myself,

piece by piece.

I've tried even using a so-called hard glue in my life, 

just to get back on track.

But some pieces are falling

as if there's a lacking.

I tried using different keys to unlock the old me;

the old me that was motivated in living,

the old me that can overcome any problems,

the old me that do not need any help,

that old me that no one could take down,

but these keys do not work,

as if they're old and rusty.

Making me realize that it has been a long time

since I've been "ME".

Photo by: Suzy Hazelwood